My Story, My Truth, My Secret, and maybe My Goodbye

[XDBFplaysGamesX | Daniel]

NOTICE:
Before you begin to read, I just simply want to start out by saying what I did was entirely wrong, and I regret doing it. A punishment is what I don't want to be sought, but compassion. I don't sought for embarrassment, but forgiveness. I am sorry for all the people I fooled, but this is a guilt that I have been keeping secret for months now.

My super brief story:
On the 18th of August 2013, I first got Minecraft. I begged day after day to get it, and proved myself that I can pay 27 dollars for a game, so then, my mother bought it for me, and I happily got on. The first server I immediately went to was MCSG, because of my obsession with it, and of the Youtubers that I saw play them, more specifically, a more obscure Youtuber, Antastiq. So I played for a long while, and got attached to the servers. So one day, I decided to take it a step forward to sign up in the forums. My first account to many, but this one is my second and main. I mainly signed up because I was so eager to help out with the community by applying for mod, and this is my mistake. So I did all that and got declined.This went on for a couple of mod apps until I got pending, then declined. I then made an app that was actually good and I got interview. Things happened; got declined. Not going into detail, but things happened. Fast forwarding. Got interview the second time, and I got declined. At that point on, I had no effort to go on the servers again. I just was done because I have done over 8-10 applications, and nothing was really gained from. "Just do your best" they said. I enjoyed my experience here, and to actually put into perspective, I actually gained something. Now to the horrible part.

The Truth and Secret:
As I have said before, please do not embarrass me of this, because I am ashamed of this. Sorry for all the ones I deceived and failed by this thread. I'm writing this because of the guilt that it has brought me. Ok, so here it is. The thing that I have been hiding since last year. I'm not 14. Yep, there you have it. If you know me, then I'm sorry. So sorry what deception I have brought to you. I never meant it to be that way. When I decided to do that, I put my will in front of my honour and my dignity, and I beat myself up for that. I am so sorry. I wish that I wouldn't have to face consequences, but I feel that is what should happen. I ask that you don't punish, for I feel as if I can redeem myself, but I guess that is the cost of mistakes. Right now it feels good that I lot go of that, and all I want below is support. It took a lot of guts to write this and I just want support. Again, please don't punish me severely. Maybe to never submit an application here, but I'm ok with that, because I realized what endeavors I should do which is more important; the endeavors that I sought for is the ones that are not on Earth. They can't be stolen, damaged, lost, et cetera. Its endeavors that I want to save myself. To save.

The Goodbye:
Now that I have told over 200,000+ my secret, I guess this is goodbye. Don't expect to see me a lot. I might just in all. I might stop by once in a while, but thats it. I'm ashamed about what I have done. A permanent ban is not what I'm asking for. I'm just asking for forgiveness. Well, I guess I should list the people that made my MCSG experience great:
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ChadTheDJ: Oh Chad! How would my experience be if you didn't make these servers. Thank you for making these servers and making an almost impossible dream back then a reality

AlpakaWhacker: You really made me laugh at times Jamie! You brought life into me and really helped me apply after what happened. Even though I'm leaving, I'm still counting on you to get Turris Tremores on the servers with VIP and all that stuff ;D.

Mooclan: Oh Alex, what can I say? You were probably the closest friend I had on MCGN. You helped me when I was at the worst and at the peak of myself. A long road we took together as friends. I helped you and you helped me. What I can say about you can go to the infinitum of how many numbers are between 0 and 1. All I can say is that you are practically the most trustworthy friend I can ask for.

Vanicle: Who other than Vanicle? You were basically the saviour of my mod road. If it weren't for you, I might have not gone super far. Thank you for what you done.

And to every single community member out there that were not mentioned, thank you for what you have given me. A server to go to when nothing was right. Thank you

I love you all. Every single one of you. The last of me has been seen. I love you.




This was XDBFplaysGamesX, otherwise known as Daniel here. Over and out.

 

[replace]

If you knew that the rule was that you were supposed to be 14, why did you apply? You can always make videos of hackers and report them, and with the new MCSG gift thing, you could still help out the community without being a mod.

 

[jtmboy]

If you knew that the rule was that you were supposed to be 14, why did you apply? You can always make videos of hackers and report them, and with the new MCSG gift thing, you could still help out the community without being a mod.

Because he thought he could get moderator by lying about his age but the truth is he is one of the best people I have ever met

 

[replace]

Because he thought he could get moderator by lying about his age

I would feel so guilty tho

 

[UndeniableZombie]

Unless you applied for mod and actually got it. It isn't that bad

 

[Vanicle | Vanessa]

Daniel, we all have our secrets and we have all told lies. I'm not going to judge you for saying you were 14. In the long run, that doesn't matter - what matters is that you had the courage to tell the truth and apologize. You're a great person and that's one reason why I kept encouraging you to apply for moderator. You truly care about the community and I really admire that about you. Hopefully we'll see you back very soon, possibly even in the MCG Applications section. Let me know if you need anything, I'm only a click away.

 

[jtmboy]

I would feel so guilty tho

That is why why he confessed

 

[LieutenantIV]

This is actually quite admirable, especially in light of the fact it is usually tough to take off a mask and reveal your true self. Lots of respect for you, mate, regardless of how old you are.

 

[Etos]

I was once told this by a friend who help me keep going in life. He said "The first step to forgiveness is admitting what you've done and expect consequence.", you my friend have just done the first part of getting forgiven, (which I don't think you need to be forgiven) now you just hope everyone forgives you! By the way, even though I don't know you, I forgive you!

 

[Ceroria]

It's one thing to lie for personal gain, it's another to lie so you can try to make a difference, which is what it seems you were doing. You could have always applied for an age exception, though! I understand the process may have been more vigorous but you seemed like the kind of person who could have dealt with it.

Hopefully you don't go completely, you'll be missed around here c:

 

[Etos]

It's one thing to lie for personal gain, it's another to lie so you can try to make a difference, which is what it seems you were doing. You could have always applied for an age exception, though! I understand the process may have been more vigorous but you seemed like the kind of person who could have dealt with it.

Hopefully you don't go completely, you'll be missed around here c:

There are no age exceptions anymore.

 

[J]

I literally teared up because of this. Daniel, you're an amazing person and even if you did lie, you weren't doing it for personal gain, you were doing to change a community and that is what I am admiring about you. Even if this is your final sayonara, hopefully you can come back and people can see you with a bright red.

Edit: Etos - I think what Ceroria meant was when there were age exceptions still because Daniel applied for mod before there weren't anymore age exceptions.